January 2010
72 posts
Seriously considering transferring schools. It’ll be cheaper and, honestly, I need a campus I can get lost on. This one is too small, too close-knit. And my major has been getting some serious doubts from me lately, I need something more interactive. SOOOO, now filling out an application and just going to wait it out and see how many of my credits will transfer over… if it all works...
P.s. I’m not trying to hate on religion…so don’t think I’m a jerk. I’m just slightly frustrated with the fact that I’m considered ignorant because of my lack of belief in certain deities. I’m also extremely touchy about this whole blur of church and state that’s been painfully apparent in the gay rights struggle. I do respect people of religion, I...
So… today somebody from my dorm building (who’s made a point to try and be friendly with his late-night chidings, I like to call them. You know, “Go to sleep, it’s late” kinda stuff… by the way I don’t even know his name LMFAO) brought about an issue I should address. You see, I was walking to the dinning hall and I keep my head down most of the time...
religious friend: “So you know everything there is to know about this world, you have no questions? You’re so sure of your theories and data?”
Me: “Wait..what? NO, I barely know anything about this world- I have thousands of questions, that’s the point of science. Don’t you understand? You’re the one who claims to have the answers… maybe you should...
I honestly believe “ocean Avenue” by Yellowcard will always have a little piece of my soul… *sigh* Call me immature or simple-minded—— I’ll just remember the smell of the ocean and think about all of those times I had with them…
Plant Physiology lab till five… I am a “bitch” apparently… *sigh*, I’m getting used to the word.
Much love, Universe- as always,
Nik.
Alright… so today is important. EXTREMELY important. I need to find it, find that awareness again (it’s here, somewhere) and make it sing.
love always,
Nik.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA… I think that I just saw my old english teacher in somebody tonight. Movements, the eyes, the tone of voice. I thought of lectures, I saw an over-lap of the two bodies and I was taken by complete surprise. Mostly, I think it’s the respect level they both have from me… but also, I wonder if it was just how seriously we assessed the very nature of thought,...
Just convince me that everything we had together…was more than the two of us escaping our lives. Just tell me you knew something about me, like I knew your laugh. Make sure and mention how memories are not always the most crucial thing in a relationship, that it’s more about our ability to make each other live in the moment with zest and to keep going with motivation and passion. I was...
I’m sitting in work-study right now, I’ve been here for two hours. Two more to go… actually an hour and fifty-three minutes to go. This semester I’m working in the morning on saturday instead of the evening like the past two semesters… this, unfortunately, means more application of knowlege I’ve come to gather about the workings of this library. Mostly,...
I know that if I get outside, where the air isn’t warm and carrying doses of anesthesia, I’ll recover- I’ll feel motivated and alive. I cracked my window to help me, to start detoxing my lungs. I think it’s working, my head doesn’t hurt and I’m not half-asleep. I’ve planned the route in my head, where I want to go. I need to get to that bridge, maybe...
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“Isn’t this enough? Just this world? Just this? Just this beautiful, complex...”
– Tim Minchin (via maddnessinmethod)
couldn’t say it better…
““Sometimes people having breakdown problems can look very beautiful because they...”
– Andy Warhol (via dirtylittlestylewhore) (via lettherebelove) (via eemmaa) (via lesnuitsfauves)
I always wonder what kind of impression I leave? Are people intrigued? Put off? Non-nonchalant? I never really know anymore. Some days I think one thing and other days I think differently. I try to judge people’s expressions but that seems useless; it’s an art not a science- too much interpretation needed. I wonder if my isolation, however it was caused, can be something useful?
There...
FB conversation with Michele :-P
Michele
You just like to call when I’m sleeping
8:46amNikki
yeah. Cuz I like to be in your d reams
WHAT’S wrong with that?!
you used to think it was adorable
8:46amMichele
You already are baby.
;)
hehe
8:46amNikki
lmfao
:-P
lesbianism… the topic michele and nikki stray to inevitably.
8:47amMichele
Every day just about
How sad
lmao
Over-indulging in Ramen noodles (shrimp-flavored for the piscetarian)… four lolipops and plenty of twizzlers… hmmm. I wanted to go somewhere, do something, spend some fucking energy. But I didn’t have anywhere to go, anything to do and there was nobody who had anywhere or anything to show me. So I slept and just lied there and watched, horrified, as my life expended itself. I...
I’m suppose to be on my way to pick up my friend so we can hangout in Augusta tonight… but I felt like I needed to write something down first. I don’t believe there’s an afterlife… and people don’t handle that kind of logic, they don’t understand it. But I’m not going to believe in an afterlife because I can’t handle that leap of reality or how...
“Feminism is a socialist anti-family political movement that encourages women to...”
– Pat Robertson
(via homosaywhat)
(via olympicnoodle)
TRUE STORY.
(via rosasparks)
Looks like I left a few things off my list of New Year’s Resolutions!
(via katoleary)
I’d better find myself a husband so I can leave him… If I cast a lovespell to help, do I get bonus points for achieving a two...
SHINEDOWN concert on the 30TH! Just bought my ticket online :-)
It’s been a while since I’ve been driven mad by the question, “are they looking at me???” and gotten legitimate encouragement… at least I think it was legitimate???
haha, yeah. I doubt I’ll be in my right mind in the two classes I have with them. I doubt I’ll do much but stare- god damn it.
much love to the universe tonight,
Nik. :-*
Send donations to these links (all legit- go directly to the organizations helping Haiti):
www.redcross.org
www.waterprojectsinternational.org
I just watched a movie that gave me the most amazing case of the butterflies… and I don’t know why. Funny story, eh? I think so.
Home this weekend…for the funeral on Saturday morning.
much love to the universe tonight,
Nik.
Quote: "No longer can we accept that part of life...
Found this in an email that was sent out to the students and teachers here at Unity College. It was a very important, motivational message about how our society is run like a “sporting event” where you pick one side and root for it instead of being enlightened. They called out fox news :-)
“Question.
Stand.
Speak.
Act.
Make us uncomfortable.
Make us think.
Make us feel.
...
:-) My friends are beginning to be more and more amazing!
My grandfather just died.
Energy recycled through the universe- touched on in two different lectures this morning. Relevance??? Extremely awe-inspiring. I fucking love biology….chemistry. Just understanding- where it is in our race and how it feebly tackles the workings of the universe.
Love always,
Nik.
This semester is sink or swim… early classes and late classes-everyday. NO WAY AROUND IT, I have to get into this or it’s going to be HELL.
I believe that this year is going to be something to remember. I can’t tell the future but I know that the present is overwhelming… and I don’t see myself drowning in the horrid motions of my current day-to-day. NO SIR. That is...
My Grandfather had a stroke and fell… he’s not going to make it.
I hope my grandmother is alright, she’s a strong woman…but I worry about her :-/
So… I’m back at Unity (my college). Classes begin tomorrow at eight a.m… I’m not enthused. I’m not discontent either. But I don’t have anywhere else in the world that I’ve got a burning passion to be in. So, here I am… trying to get a major that resembles some of the vastness I want to aquatint myself with in this life.
good fucking luck to...
shampooing rugs, loads and loads of laundry… packing up boxes…. oy, work and then hour drive to school tomorrow.THEN I have to unload everything in my dorm room and set up.
Tegan and Sara are helping me through it though. LOOOOVE em.
Perry v. Schwarzenegger →
maddnessinmethod:
The next battle to watch in the gay marriage issue, read up people. Historically civil rights have always been given via court cases and legislative action, never a majority vote, so here goes.
this is good to read through, esp. if you’ve only been sorta-kinda listening to everything that’s going on. CHECK out some other sites too, articles,testimonies—-...